Thursday, February 10, 2011

February Blahs

First of all, I want to say thank for all the feedback I've been getting about the book chapter I posted.
It was kind of a 'forgotten' project and I had written it off as a therapy project, but now I want to finish it. Writer's block sucks lol. I also know it's insanely hard to get anything published if you are a 'nobody', so I've been getting discouraged by that too..

So yeah... It's February... and I feel blah.

I try to like winter, I do. I try to not imprint on Toby that winter is the time of year that we stay inside and be miserable. But lately he keeps asking to do things that we can't do in the winter. He wants to hoe in the garden, he wants to ride on his truck outside, he wants me to throw the ball up in the roof so he can catch it when it comes off, he wants to stop at every playground we see...
All those things we COULD do in the winter, but he barely likes walking in his snowsuit, let alone climbing around in it. He won't even climb our front step when he has his snow gear on.
So to avoid tantrums and i-told-you-sos, i just say no before we're all miserable.
Yesterday there were 6 instances where my answer was "Well... that may be a better thing to do when the snow melts"
I feel like i'm turning winter into a non-fun time of year for him.
I"m hoping when he's older and he can move around better it will be easier.

I like a white Christmas but once this time of year comes I'm just done.

And then comes Valentine's Day.

I've never expressed much like for the holiday.
Even in relationships I complain that one shouldn't need a holiday to tell someone they love them.
And so I've never really had any big epic Valentine's story.
And now that I'm older I'm starting to wish I did.

I've become a hopeless hopeless romantic. I don't know if it was always there and I just suppressed it, or if me 'growing up' while I was at college turned me into a girly girl.
When I say 'No, don't bother, it's  just a stupid holiday", I really mean "I hope like heck that when I get home there are rose petals strewn everywhere with an outfit laid on my bed with a note reading 'Get dressed and meet me at 'such-and-such-a-place'' and then a big romantic dinner and a big romantic movie night filled with chocolate and ice cream"

And so now I find myself looking at my son and thinking that I can't wait for him to be school age so he can draw me surprise Valentine's at school and bring them home to me.

Doesn't mean I like the holiday... just I'm more a sucker for it now.

More blahs: February is one of the coldest months of the year because the sun has been off this hemisphere for so long that even though the days are getting longer, the surface temperature is still freezing. So it snows, and freezes, and we get ice storms, and I"m just sick of being cold.
Seriously this is what we look like in winter from space
Our entire country is white.
I need to take up snowboarding or something.

I feel like I need to have a positive party for winter....We'll see if i can think up enough things to make a decent list lol.

I also feel like I have no real news or stories to share at the moment.
Another 'blah'.

That's all for now!

1 comment:

  1. Amen sister! If spring doesn't get here soon, I'm going to start walking towards the equator.